No Excuses

So tonight I decided to catch up on the new season of The Biggest Loser.  The theme this year is no excuses.  It's like getting hit between the eyes with a 2x4.  Weight Watchers is one of the easiest diet programs to follow, yet I've been making excuses for why I can't do it.  I don't have time to cook.  I don't have time to exercise.  I don't like to exercise.  I've been good so I can eat that fatty food.  I don't have time to track.  I don't want to track.  Long story short, I'm lazy.  And that's my biggest excuse.  I only lost 14 pounds last year.  That's not cool.  I know I have the ability to lose this weight, but I need to get over myself. 

I've made some small strides in the last couple of weeks towards getting over my laziness.  I've been getting in some decent walks afer work because the dog needs them.  But you know what, I need them too!  I feel better afer I've done it.  My body feels better, and my mind is clearer.  Tonight it was 30 degrees with 40 mph wind gusts, and I still went.  I didn't even complain!  Now it's snowing and it's supposed to be colder tomorrow, but I still plan on goin.

My food has been completely off track this week though.  The biggest reason is because I have't had the right foods in the house.  In an attempt to remedy that for next week, I've thoughroughly planned out ALL of my meals for the next 2 weeks, and have made my grocery list accordingly.  I've always known how important it is to have a back-up plan for meals, because life can get in the way of even the best-laid plans.  But it finally clicked with me that those back-up plans need to be nutritious as well as fast and easy.  I've planned for that as well.

Something else that's been blocking me is the thought of needing to lose 60+ pounds.  I can't look at the big picture any more.  It's too overwhelming.  I know that I'm not going to lose it overnight, so subconsciously I put off giving my best effort.  I HAVE to break it down into smaller goals.  Weight Watchers emphasizes 5 pound incriments, but I really think I need to break it down even further.  My goal for this Saturday is just some kind of loss.  I'll take anything this week. 

Next week I'm going to challenge myself to lose 2 pounds.  This is going to take dedication and discipline.  I'm going to have to get my walks in.  I'm going to have to stay within my points.  I'm going to have to focus on power foods.  I'm going to have to stay hydrated.  I'm going to have to cook.  I'm going to have to take time for myself and do what I need to do to get myself healthy.  And everyone else is just going to have to accept that.

As Yoda says, "Do or do not, there is no try."  Making excuses is the same as trying. Making excuses is not doing.  I want to do.  I want this weight off.  From here on out, I do.